[IC] Post-TDW (WS/EC compliant)

[thatboyisamonster]

[ man, did Loki just appear in your quarters ]

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[thatboyisamonster]

You don't even know what you're asking! You have this idealistic hope that it'll work, but it won't, Spock!

[scienceping]

... Why?

[thatboyisamonster]

Because it doesn't include me anymore!

[scienceping]

[reaching out again, curling his fingers gently against Loki's face]

[thatboyisamonster]

I'll never belong.

[scienceping]

[resting their foreheads together]

You could, Loki. I desire it.

[thatboyisamonster]

I hate you. I hate you for hurting me.

[scienceping]

[winces, but continues to stay close, his grip gentle]

[thatboyisamonster]

And I don't understand why. You were the last person I thought -- I believed in. Why?

[scienceping]

As I said, it was not my intent to hurt you in any way. Events ... proceeded while we were separated. But I kept searching for ways to be reunited.

[thatboyisamonster]

Do you think that's what I care about? Being searched for, being found?

How would you feel if I started a life, a family without you? Never to be included, always to exist as a memory, a fringe on your mind?

[scienceping]

I do not deny that there would be ... regret. But I would also experience some content that you would be able to have one.

[thatboyisamonster]

[ snarls ]

That's the problem with your species. You have no passion. If I had known you were so complacent, I would have chosen the Captain.

[scienceping]

[pulls back a bit to look at him]

... You are lying. You know that the opposite is true.

[thatboyisamonster]

. . .

[scienceping]

You know that I desire you greatly.

[thatboyisamonster]

But it wasn't enough.

[scienceping]

Enough for what? To terminate the children?

[thatboyisamonster]

I'm not the one with unresolved guilt over choosing to be on the Enterprise and propagating your species!

[scienceping]

Unresolved?

[thatboyisamonster]

Come now, Spock. You did it for Vulcan.

[scienceping]

That was indeed part of my reasoning. The benefits of having the children outweighed the negative impacts of their birth and care.

[thatboyisamonster]

So where is my place in this?

[scienceping]

I had hoped you would come to know them.

[thatboyisamonster]

They're not mine.